I’m young, but no longer free
Shoulders filled with responsibilities
Accommodating a new lifestyle
Motherhood has its challenges
But it’s worth the sacrifices and compromises
All for the little face looking back at me.
In one word, overwhelmed. I wasn’t ready and my emotions agreed, I cried often at the beginning. Unsure of how to step into this new role, but I had to learn quickly. My soft heart searched within for courage. The courage to be the best and not admit defeat. Even when my body seemed to work against me.
During my pregnancy, I experienced iron deficiency. During labour, it was blood loss and vaginal stitches due to a third-degree tear. My emotions were in overdrive, my body felt traumatised and I was unsure of how to deal with it all. In denial, not fully healed and forcing my body to bounce back, led to panic attacks. I had to remind myself to be kind, healing is a process that doesn’t happen overnight. Despite it all, I’ve also learned so much during my first year of motherhood. I decided to celebrate today by sharing five lessons motherhood has taught me, so far.
My child needs something and it’s my job to figure it out. Does your nappy need changing or perhaps you’re hungry? Do you need a hug or is that just me? Oh, I know, you’re cranky and tired yet refuse to sleep in case you miss out on something. Through all his antics he’s teaching me to be patient, especially in the mornings.
My son is teaching me empathy, to let go of my selfish tendencies and put his needs first. He inspires me to be the best version of myself, someone who can pass down wisdom, not trauma and despair.
I’m seeing the world from a new perspective. What seems mundane and ordinary to adults, drives a baby’s imagination wild. The endless possibilities, this could be a shoe, a drumstick or a car. It all depends on my mood.
He’s curious about the world, if you take your eyes off him for a second, it may turn your day upside down. It reminds me to be present in every moment, to not linger on my phone. He’s at the stage where everything excites him and he has to share it with you.
From a baby’s perspective: I have a present for you, it’s a rock I found in the garden. Take this shoe, it was laying on the floor. This looks interesting and bizarre, in my mouth you go. Such a giant door, what does pushing it do?
No Manual To Parenting
Most importantly, there’s no manual to motherhood and perfection doesn’t exist. One size doesn’t fit all, especially in this situation. I had to take it one day at a time and figure it out from there. Motherhood isn’t for everyone, don’t step into it lightly. It has challenges, requires sacrifices, but also has the ability to be rewarding.
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